Happy Halloween

 Just wanted to share a couple more pictures of Mom and her fun loving self. 

Wednesday

This time last year we were waiting for Mom's white blood count to begin moving up after the transplant.  Gosh, that seems like such a long time ago.  It is amazing how different our lives are.  This was my week to stay with Mom and I desperately wish that I could do that again.  Just to spend time with her, to tell her I love her, to give her a hug.  I miss talking to her every day, shopping with her, knowing that she was around to answer questions, give a word of advice, just being my Mom.

Dear Mom:  I miss you so much..  Life is so different without you.  Please know that we all love you and wish you were here with us.

365 Days Later

This time one year ago today Dad, Rae and I were already headed to MD Anderson to spend the day with Mom and B because today was the day. Today she was getting her stemcell transplant which as going to make her better and we were going to do this as we did everything else important. . . .as a family. It began day 100 of her stay in Houston before she could come back home to us. We had so much hope that day. The transplant took an hour, that was it, 60 minutes. Mom just had to lay in bed and we just had to hang out with her and enjoy being a family. Today, 365 days later, our life is not what we expected. We miss her. The sun shine is a little less bright, the grass a little less green, our laughter a little quieter, our hearts a whole lot broken, our feelings a little more fragile, and our world a whole lot less happy. Because you never know what life is going to hand to you, make sure you tell those you love how much you love them and never take your time together for granted. We love you Mom and miss you. Everyone misses you. I hope we are making you proud. We are taking care of Daddy as best we can (no one will ever be able to take care of him like you did). We love you.

Weekend

I missed you so much this weekend, we all missed you. My heart has been hurting so much knowing that I was going to have to celebrate a milestone without you. Wish you could have celebrated with us.

7 Months

This past Friday was 7 months since we lost Mom. I still have a hard time believing that she is really gone. I still miss her so much every single day. This morning in church I kept smelling Mom's perfume. I don't know why. I am almost positive that no one wears the perfume that she wore so maybe it was just Mom telling me HI. I still have a moment every time we are at church that I really have to try my hardest not to cry because I miss her. This week is going to be hard for me and I am sure that I will spend a lot of time with tears for my Mom. I hope she knows how much I love her and how much we miss her.